Crossroads

Crossroads

I feel so weak..

I feel incomplete..

I can't feel your presence anymore..

I am going astray..

I tried to hold on to you but you let me go..

I wanted to make it last but you had to cut it short..

Certainly..I'm approaching a crossroad..

I don't ever want to lose the feeling..

I don't want to forget how it felt to have you with me..

I don't want to forget how happy i was when we were together..

How happy i was when i knew you were there..

How excited i was everytime i thought you had some time..

Are all of these now coming to pass..?

Am i getting tired of waiting in vain..?

Is she still worth waiting for..?

Am I really left alone with all these pain..?

I'm still trying to hold on..

But time just keeps forcing me to let go..

I hope I can still hold on..

Will History Repeat Itself?

Will History Repeat Itself?

mangyayari na naman ba?
magtatapos na naman ba?
mawawalan ka na naman ba ng spark?
mananahimik ka na lang ba?

araw-araw kitang iniisip.. inaalala..
ikaw kaya?

parang kahapon lang nung andun tayo sa bahay nyo..
ansaya-saya natin nun diba?
nakalimutan mo na ba?

tatapusin mo na naman ba?

ilang araw ka nang hindi nagrereply..
hindi ka naman siguro aabutin ng
1 minuto para mareply-an mo txts ko dba?

sobra-sobra bang hingiin ko na pansinin mo naman
at pagtuunan ako ng kakaunting panahon..

isa ba itong pagsubok na kailangan kong lampasan?

kung pagsubok nga..
hanggang kailan mo ako pahihirapan?

hindi ako makapag-isip ng maayos..
hindi ko alam kung ano ang iisipin ko..
wala akong mapagtanungan kundi ang sarili ko..
gusto ko mang itanong sayo ay di ka naman sumasagot..

ano na ang dapat kong isipin?
anong dapat kong malaman?
anong gusto mong mangyari?

aaahhhhhhhh!!!!!
bakit ba kasi may burnout eh...

haiii...

hindi ka naman masamang tao eh..
don't be too hard on yourself..

ginawa mo lang ang dapat na gawin..
walang masama dun..

hindi mo naman kasalanan kung
bakit nawalan ka ng 'spark' para sa akin..
ano bang malay mo na ganun nga ang mangyayari..

hmm.. hindi naman ako nagbago eh..
kailangan ko lang magpahinga..
nakakapagod kasi ang buhay eh..

mukha ba akong naglulunod?
hindi naman siguro..
di nga ako marunong lumangoy eh..

di ako magsi-swimming sa dagat na di ko kayang tawirin..
at kung malulunod man ako...
'my love for you will keep me afloat'
sana lang makatawid muna ako bago mawala yan..

hmm.. magcha-chat pa rin ako..
pero di ako sure dun sa prom..
bahala na..

hmm.. lam mo?
siguro nga binago mo ako..
pero ako naman ung pumili na baguhin
ang sarili ko para sayo..
may napala pa rin naman ako eh..
marami akong natutunan..
ehehehe..

yan.. wag ka na ring malungkot..
alam kong masayahin kang tao..
'it goes against your nature'

yngatan mo ang sarili mo..
di lahat ng tao ay maaaring maging katulad mo..
at natutuwa akong nakilala ko ang ibang side mo..

salamat..

Bakit Di Ko Maintindihan?

Pasenxa ka na..
Mabagal lang talaga ako..
Haii..
Gusto ko talagang maintindihan pero di ko mahanap ang sagot sa sarili ko..

Gusto kitang maging masaya..
Haii..

Andami kong gusto pero di naman pwedeng puro ako..
Masyado naman akong nagiging selfish nun..

Ayoko namang maging possessive..

Nirerespeto ko xa at gusto ko kung ano ang gusto nya..

Bakit Ba Di Ko Maintindihan?

so near yet so far...?

is this real?
i really hope not..
i think this happens because I think too much..
even though there's really nothing to think about..
i love you and i know you do too..
i'm just too shallowminded to envy a "barkada"..
i just wish that was us having a fun time..
but i'm all over it now..
i don't really know how to make a viable connection..
but I'm willing to learn..
i really wish you could help me with this things..

haii..
it's been long since we had a real talk..
i guess we've just been busy..
i'm really trying to find time for us to have a serious talk..
haii..

i really miss you..
i love you so much!!! ÜÜÜ

Bracelet... Na Inarbor... ^_^

haaii.. i just remembered something and thought i could share it with y'all..
about two months ago..
i asked for her bracelet for no apparent reason..
ever since then, i've been wearing it all the time..
(except when going to the bathroom)
i remember her saying not to lose it or destroy it..
so far, i've done just that..
ehehe.. ^_^ lalang...

I Do Love You.. No Shortcuts..

hmm.. di ito malabo..
may gusto lang akong sabihin..
alam kong mababasa mo rin ito..

gusto kitang kausapin ngaun..
gusto kong malaman kung kamusta ka na..
di na ako bothered ngaun..

sana ngaung alam mo na..
di ka na rin maging bothered..

okei lang naman kung wala kang masabi..
di naman kitah minamadali eh..

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I LOVE YOU!

"It might not have been the perfect time to say it to you..
Might not have been the sweetest way to tell you what is true..
Might not have been the best time to tell you how I feel..
But I'm sure that what I said is REAL..
And in this life of speedy ways..
I'm willing to take it slow until I hear you say..
The same words I've said yesterday.."

No shortcuts..

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Yan.. yan sana ung ittxt ko sayo ng 1:43 ng umaga..
Pero mejo iniba ko lang para madaling intindihin..

haii.. sana naintindihan mo itong sinabi ko..
kung di man nakabuti ito..
sana mapalagay na ang kalooban mo.. Ü